Thursday, February 10, 2005

197, not much but I'm started.

Which is about as much as I can say about most everything, but I remind myself of the old expression: "Do not be afraid of moving slowly, only of standing still."

Making a good alfredo sauce is more difficult that might seem apparent. With even the simplest possible recipe as a base, getting the parmesan to not clump up is near impossible. But I'll work on it.

Plagued by anxious feelings over my finances, I sat down last night with the MUN calendar and opened the spreadsheet I made some time back to start outlining what I'd need to finish a Comp Sci degree. I started sorting through it, figuring what I did and didn't have, and then eventually picked out what I figured would have to be my 5 courses for my first semester back, this fall. I'm looking at only 2 Comp Sci courses (because they're prerequisites for so many others), a Sociology course, which I found is not classified as a science, it seems, interestingly enough, a Math course in Calculus that's sure to leave me swimming (I'm thinking of picking up the book during the summer and starting early, cause otherwise I'm going to be very very very lost.), and a Psych course in human development. I wanted to be sure to not only pick courses that would be work toward my degree in the long run, but also which will interest me in the short term. After all, I have to get back into a study mindset if I'm going to do this, and I really can't slip back in and immediately revert to half-ass about this. If I start slacking off about school, I'll remind myself how much better school is than being unemployed and broke, and remember the light at the end of the degree tunnel.

Something occurred when I was going through this process last night that was a pleasant surprise: it felt right. I've been told by so many people for so long, throughout my childhood and adult life, all about how the world (or at least my relatives) has such expectations of me. Brilliant Pat, destined to be a doctor or lawyer or whatever other cliche all the genius people gravitate towards. And I've always worn that expectation like a horrible yoke. But this return to school isn't about what I am or am not supposed to do, like it was in the past. This time it'll be about me. It'll be about what I want and what I need.

Today I went for my appointment at the bank, where my financial woes were fixed, at least for the time being, and should remain stable until school starts in the fall. Needless to say, this was an enormous burden off my adled mind, and I might even sleep tonight. :P What's left is to square away some bills tomorrow, get the rest of my stuff moved when I'm able, and look for work to tide myself over in the meantime. Oh, and of course to complete and submit the necessary paperwork, get a jump on what books will be used and consider picking them up early. Oh! And I also came up with an interesting idea. There were a few courses MUN wouldn't give me transfer credit from TUNS for, despite my arguing the point. Perhaps if I can get the books, over the spring and summer I could read up and do a "challenge for credit". That might likewise put me a few courses ahead, if it's possible, and might even change my fall lineup.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Alfredo sauce is one of the quickest and easiest sauces to make. An overheated sauce, adding the cheese all at once and not bothering to continue stirring will cause the clumping.

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